Monday, August 28, 2006

Hard to understand



Why is it that everytime I feel something for someone, Fate tends to screw up everything? Maybe I'm just being paranoid but I think I'm really jinxed when it comes to love. Every man or boy that I had loved turned out to be not what I expect.... The tears I had cried for them just make me hate the fact that they made me so emotional. How I wish I can understand what men want.... scratch that!! How I wish I know what I want. Why is it that everytime I have to be attracted to a guy that is absolutely wrong for me? Why is it that I never fall for the decent guys who are interested in me? Maybe a small part of me wants to love men who are so wrong for me because that part of me feels that I do not deserve to be happy....



My dreams have been getting weirder and weirder...now instead of dreaming about a different life, I dream of water and cliffs. Sometimes snow.... *sigh* gotta start reading books about dreams!! Gotta find out what these bloody dreams are about? I really hope it's not an omen.... can't take anymore shocks or surprises....

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