Sometimes I just wonder what the hell am I going to do in my life..... I hate having moments like this!!! Especially when I'm feeling so tired and sleepy and suddenly these thoughts come to my head and I will be like 'DAMN!! I won't sleep easy tonight!' So now I'm thinking what the hell is going to happen to me ten years down the road..... Will I be a career woman determined to climb the career ladder and annihilate anyone who stands in my way or will I be obsessing over the fact that half the men out there are not for me and constantly griping to my girlfriends most men are asses or will I be..... a happy little housewife intent on pleasing my husband in every way *shudder* OK so that last one is a little far out because I feel like I never want to marry anyone.
Still.... I wish that ten years down the road that I will have at least one relationship that ended amicably. I used to have one ex-boyfriend who was practically my best friend. However for some unknown reason (to me) he's not talking to me. Now I'm usually one to ask him what's his fucking problem but.... I guess I'm not that brave because I'm a little afraid to know the answer. I've known him for a long time and as a matter of fact he was my first boyfriend. So it hurts me that I officially am not friends with any of my exes. Frankly that's a little depressing. Although there IS a silver lining...... I'm single now and happy now. And that ain't words coming from a girl living in denial but from someone who has finally realized that she doesn't need a boyfriend to survive. If I have a boyfriend and he treats me well similarly I'll still be happy if I'm single for the next few years with the occasional date. That's fine with me. And if anyone has a problem with that...... well..... SCREW YOU!!!
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